Bless me y'all, for I have sinned.

[featherynscale]

The whole thing seemed pretty innocent at the time. I was just going to go over to Meetup.com, and put Gaia's Games Night on the list as a Board/Card Game Meetup. That was it. Of course, to do that, I had to get an account. And then, I thought, while I'm here, I'll just poke about and see if there's anything interesting going on in Kansas City...

Suddenly, without stopping to consider, I was signing up for all kinds of things. Pagan meetup, environmentalist meetup, neurolinguistic programming meetup (what does that even mean?). And then, in the next breath, Kansas City Speculative Fiction Writers' meetup. They meet regularly. They critique each others' work. They have a meeting this Thursday. One of them sent me a personal note explaining the process and asking me to come.

So I say to myself, "What the hell am I thinking? I do not need another regularly scheduled meeting, even if it would be fun and might help! I am on The Crack!". But I'm thinking of going anyway. I have this problem. I see things, I think "Oh, yes, that sounds like fun, I will do that!", and then, here I am, with no free time and seventy-twelve commitments still to fulfill. I have Helium Hand.

And then, last night, triadruid says to me, "We want you to serve on the Nominating Committee for Gaia next year." And I say, "Why? I don't want to be on the Nominating Committee, and besides, I suck at it." He says, "Because you've been around forever, you know everybody, and you've been on every committee we have, so you know what they need." I protest. "I have not been on every committee!" He says,"Name one that you haven't served on." I say, "Caring." For some reason, everybody laughs.

So that's my sad story. Also, while I was on the Meetup.com website, I noticed that Kansas City has a large number of people who say they are interested in a group about shyness and social anxiety. But nobody's called a meeting about it yet. Ha. I think if they did, I might go. Except, you know, I'm shy. :/

Comments

[featherynscale.livejournal.com]

I actually feel much the same way. I have no problems (anymore) dealing with people if there is a specific purpose to the thing, but I can't really manage Just Hanging Out or Just Making Nice with people I don't know. But then, LJ aside, I try not to talk if I don't have anything to say.

I've been working on the extraversion thing, though, because I think to a certain extent, you have to do it to survive. So I've shifted myself from a middle-range I on the MBTI (that's the only MBTI scale that means anything, so I don't feel bad about quoting it)to straddling the I/E line. However, this has taken about 10 years, and I think it's about as good as it's gonna get at this point.

[saffronhare.livejournal.com]

Oh, I can perform, all right. When there's need or a specific intent or duty or whatever. You know it's not about being shy or having any social anxiety.

But when I have a choice? I just don't seek out extra social stuff, or try to create it. These days, I also reserve a certain amount of time to myself FIRST, rather than trying to carve it out later. Works better for me that way. (shrug)

Y'all have fun. :)