Insomnia

[featherynscale]

I was wondering why I whine so much about things like not being able to sleep in my journal. This morning, I realized it was so that when I'm wondering how long it's been since I last got any decent sleep, I could go back and check. Clever, me. So apparently it's been a few days longer than I thought, since I first started talking about not sleeping on the 30th December. Six days, not two or three. No wonder I'm tired. No wonder I wanted to cry this morning when triadruid came in to get me out of bed.

Something needs to change in this game. Normally when I can't sleep, it's because I can't breathe. I wake up startled and fuzzy-minded, and immediately go back to sleep. This is not that. I wake up fully present, and can't go back to sleep for 15-30 minutes. I thought it was the cold meds (stimulants, after all), but I haven't had any cold meds for a couple of days now, and still, not the sleeping.

Next thing I know, I'll be getting night jobs as a projectionist, or sitting up all night writing goetic evocations of Snuffleuphagus (or not - I'm pretty sure that knowing a spirit's true name and nature are prerequisites for evocation, and not only do I not know how to spell the name of the beast, I had a difference of opinion with triadruid last night over whether it was intended to be a mammoth or an anteater.)

Comments

[malvito.livejournal.com]

Do you kick yourself awake, grind your teeth, or wake up feeling fuzzy-minded with headaches a lot? This is a shot in the dark, and may have nothing to do with your situation, but I had all of these symptoms, and testing in a sleep clinic diagnosed me with sleep apnea. I now get plenty of sleep due to the presence of a machine that forces air into my lungs, which is a very funky feeling at first and makes me look like one of those patients in the movie COMA except for the fact that I am not being suspended from the ceiling with scheming doctors salivating over the thought of parceling out my internal organs to the highest bidder. (If you haven't seen the movie yet ... well, funky movie. Creepy.) I don't know what kind of medical insurance you might have, but, unless I am completely off the mark, that might be worth checking out.

[featherynscale.livejournal.com]

Actually, I do have apnea. It generally doesn't bother me all that much, though, and I haven't had anything done about it as the whole mask thing kind of freaks me the hell out. This is a different game though - I wake up feeling perfectly clear, like I ought to get out of bed and do something, just so, so tired. I don't know what it's about.